There is so much I would love to say/comment in response to your wonderful post Justin. It brought to me a heap of pleasant imagery. I would love to know you better, and I don't mean physically.
To comment and ask questions here would be too public for me.... and to be honest could really only be expressed face to face in a reactive conversation that is not possible like this. I wish.....nah, ah well....
But of course I only know the one side of the story, and only what you write for public consumption. So, I really don't have a full picture of Peter or your relationship.
It is a great pity that we cannot talk face to face and I could enjoy your impish humour first hand....ha! I love it.
But of course I can only leave that to my imagination. Keep feeding it..haha.
From what I've read, and more importantly from what I've read between the lines, I trust that you have the good sense not to hurt either of you if you two do grow apart. I feel you will always be friends, if you have anything to do with it.
I wish you both all the best and I do, very much, love your style and humour, you do make me smile and laugh, keep it up my friend, you appear to be a special person indeed. In fact I am sure of it.
GREG in Adelaide: Thanks very much for your good supportive message. I really do appreciate that and glad to know I am giving something to you and the rest. It helps me to know from others that I am not a mess and that i am doing a pretty good job with life. . . good enough at least I am not totally messed up. LOL
Wouldn't it be fun to sit around and natter over stuff. . words says much. . .eyes and body language add so much more.
I sure hope I would never ever do anything to hurt Peter: he deserves only my best to respond to his gentle, persuasive, often humorous, sweeet ways of being and doing. He has a fire and a calmness which calls forth my best reactions. . . I like to think.
We do not know where all of this will lead us but of this we are more sure after this weekend: we really do want to and will "do our possible" to live in the NOW as best we can and enjoy the gift we find in each other. The future we have is in a large part built on how we live today, in the NOW.
We were talking late in the night about Christmas and gift-giving and all. . .Peter turned to me and looked me in the eye with his sometimes laughing/sometimes so deep deep black flashing serious eyes and simply said: "The only gift I want from you is that you love me tomorrow as you have yesterday and as you do right now. What else do I need? With that I have everything; the rest is "stuff" ! and babe, I have more than enough stuff!"
Waaaaauuughhhhhh. . .talk about melting. . . in his little finger my baker-fisherman knows more about loving and maturity than all the bloody books I read plus the ones I intend to write. . .hahahaa!
On the shelf is a print showing two old well-loved and well-experienced people laughing to one another: "Come, grow old with me. . .the best is yet to come!"
That's Peter and me. . .with so many years ahead of us. Longevity is on both sides of the families! And all he asks of me is NOW. . . sweet! I can be that!